its been a while lost has happened dont feel like writing long story short dated greg 3 months got dumped been dateing since nothing special new job love it tons shits still messed started smoking again stopped drugs stopped fucking around found a friend worth staying alive for derek amazing guy makes me wanna live hes probly the #1 reason i'm still alive long story short me and dale got in a fight i hate him he said and did some bad things handed me a blade and said do us all a favor and die i wanted to trust me i really did but then derek came to mind and i couldnt do it the thought of how mad he'd be it make me not cut i found my reason not much else to say i could really go for a smoke parentals are home so i cant and everyone is out thats that -derek your my reason