its been a while cant blame me i've been a tad busy between school the play dance my friends work yea i'm busy to say the least its been one month i still dont sleep well i cant sleep its so hard the dreams are still there they will be for a long time prolly gonna get worse after tonight tonight was hard went to dans saw his car didnt cry but got really mad pissed me off i want someone to feel my pain to go thru what i did but i cant do that i really wouldnt wish that that hell upon my worst enemy this may seem like complaining but its not its venting gettng out my frustrations i need a boyfriend to occupy my time and a punching bag to get out my anger which apparently i have lots of whoda thunk me angry? never! ha bullshyt i got lots of anger recently i seem to have more i'm out peace -numb