still havent decided what to do. today we talked a little about stuff. she understands if i wanna break up. she said she just wants what i want. which is kind of a shitty thing to say cuz it just makes me feel like shit. but oh well. ill get over it. i need to get my passport if i cam to go to canada this winter. i want to go to new york. and see yankee stadium. and meet jorge posada and joba chamberlain. thatd be legit. i want a handlebar mustache. and i want to turn 21. not because i wanna drink and gamble and shit. really, thats not why. im fucking sick of being 20 already. i feel like once i am 21 i will have accomplished something even though its unavoidable. i ate a shitty day old sandwich today.