i mostly cleaned my room today. i had too much drama with girls today. courtney, natasha, and paula. well not paula, but her ex, so unintentional drama. courtney texts me and tells me she misses me today so i had to tell her i am dating someone. natasha texts me last night when im sleeping telling me that she messes up all her relationships and that im one of them. and paula tells me that her ex that shes still friends with [and im totally ok with this] tell her that he cant be friends anymore because he cant handle her dating someone. stupid shit. so im leaving right now. when the world series is in the the 8th inning. i just want to see her. she actually said she needed me tonight. why wouldnt i go? gatorade. thats g. i have so much shit to catch up on for school. i am gonna leave after the yankees bat the inning. my lumberjack costume last night was legit. but i got too tired too early and passed the fuck out at 9:30. i think it really bummed joie out but shes gonna be here next weekend so its ok. i have inventory next weekend. i am really sick of this shit. my work schedule has blown so hardcore because im just soooooo fucking busy at work. i want to build my boat. i want to move out. i want to graduate. i want to get married. i want to live. i want to breathe. i want to scream.