last night my little sister called me stating she wanted to speak to me. at first i thought it was about my cousin meli who is her best friend but she told me it was about us. now i know i make this sound like a relationship and you know it is. i knew i was neglecting my girls but getting called out for it is a slap in the face for me and i surely needed it. while i was at work yesterday i had a 3-way phone call with my cousin meli and my girl marisol, and of course they were chewing my ass about how they've been letting shit slide about how i'm always with the guys or how i'm always with marisa and never with them. hearing that and listening to my little sister cry made me realize i'm a fucking douche and a horrible sister and i'm glad i can admit to that. to be honest, i don't feel so so bad about things in general since i'm probably selfish in that way, except with my friends_ i would do anything for them. i can't make promises but i am going to try my fucking best to see them more often and spend so much time with them, even if it means not doing things i should be or want to do. how is it that i'm good at keeping a budget but not being good at balancing time out? p.s: everyone can thank daniel moran for getting me sick