I should start preparing now. My brother in law said it's a possibility that my parents are moving to Mexico. This leaves me homeless. I don't know how the situation with my dad is right now and it seems like they really don't want to tell me which I believe to be unfair. The home in Compton and Ontario would be sold if they did. Never would I move with my older brother Carlos cause he's a piece of shit who thinks he is a real man. Dude, you're still living with me and my parents along with your family, yeahhhh dude you're a real man. My sister turned 28 yesterday and I was the only on our side of the family to actually be there while she makes a wish and cuts her cake. How pathetic is that? My mother puts my brother up on a pedestal for some odd reason that I still can't comprehend. He acts like the house in Ontario is his by putting up his ugly wedding pictures and hiding a frame that I put in the living room and replacing it with one of his daughters. I get home last night while talking to Christian and I get upset because the driveway has been blocked and I can't put my car in there. It's starting to make me think that they're doing this shit on purpose as well. No I will not be quiet when you want me to just because your daughter is sleeping. It's almost 2 years and you're suppose to be out the fucking house. My sister had said that if you died, she wouldn't attend your funeral and if she did, she would go up to your casket and say "that's what you get bitch." Do you think you're loved by everyone? Because it's obvious that you're not. Before I got home, on the drive over, I was speaking to Christian about how shit has been bringing me down such as my dad and the cancer, possibility of them leaving the country, my brother who is an idiot and the fact that I'm starting to wonder if I want to be Alexs' "friend" anymore. I almost caught myself wanting to cry, specially by speaking of my dad and his situation. I just feel that no matter how hard I try to be a good daughter, it's just not enough to their standards. I need a huge fucking hug I'm tired of taking the world on alone on the other hand, these pictures are cute we rule