i haven't been out with many friends recently and it's not because of christian. it seems that people have others at their convenience and a friendship doesn't work that way. a misconception others might have of me is that i'm a drunk but i'm really not. ever since i turned 21 i've calmed down so much that whenever i drink 3 beers, i already feel myself drunk. i would just like to let you know, all of you, even if you're not able to read this, is that i'm more than a party mode, i am me. i bend backwards for those who care, i'm the one you call if you're stuck and have no ride, i'm the one who holds your hand when you start to cry and i'm the one to "spot" you when you don't have money. you all say you miss me, but frankly, i don't believe you. how about you take an extra step? i rather not have any of you in my life than have you pretend as if you care. if i'm that boring, no worries, i find you boring too. on another note, things i'm looking forward to: - Sept. 6: LA COUNTY FAIR - Oct?: FRISCO or PORTLAND; HAPPY BDAY MARISA! - Oct. 31: HAVE HEART & CEREMONY - Nov. 15: LAS VEGAS MARINE BALL - 12/22-01/01: BOSTON WITH EL NOVIO i'm not one to plan but these things are pretty much set in stone.