I broke up with Mario. I really like him, but its not going to work out. First off, he kept talking to brittany, who was in like super flirty mode...actually, she was talking to him. but it bothered me. I don't know why. That of all things was my breaking point. I just needed lemonade, but I ended up writing 'no mas novios' on a recipt on the way back. He tried to grab me to ask why, but missed. Later, I was talking to Karen and felt a tap on my arm. It was him. He asked me if I was serious. I said yes. He asked why, I wrote a list...here it is...not exactly, but here: he doesnt care, he has a wife, he has a kid, he cant leave his family, he doesn't believe/trust me...I feel like I forgot something. Anyway, he actually got upset, which I didn't expect. He went back to his stand, and stood there alone with a sad look on his face. I went over to him later. There wasn't really anything to say..we just sorta stood there with each other. he said "I love you." Later on, he went on break, so when I was done, I did my check out up there and then just sat with him. He said "I know its my fault, but you broke my heart" It sounded like he really meant it. He grabbed my hand, fingers laced, and squeezed. I don't know why, but that means a lot. We were on the last swing outside..It started raining really hard. I believe this is the begininng of hurricane hanna or something. I started crying, and buried myself in him. He hugged me, and said sorry. He cared. He was on break like an hour extra too. He kept asking what I wanted to do, and I said no more novios...not because I wanted that, but because it was what had to happen. He kept saying no no no no, but eventually he realized. He can't have to families, two lives, to girls. The whole situation is so fucked up and bad. I hate it. I miss him, and I just want to be next to him right now. Oh well...thats life. School started too. I have six classes. Monday, Thursday: English with wiemmer. Sarah is in that class with me. The teacher seems like a lot of work, but I like her. She is into what shes doing and makes things interesting and fun. Sociology with woolery. Nobody is here with me. I was excited to go to this class, but she is a boring speaker, and its probably a bad sign that she turned on one of those boring educational dvd things first day.. gym/health with mullen. Learning how to be physically healthy and fit by an obese woman is great. I can't stand this class. Thank god Sarah is there with me. Tuesday, Friday: History with Swanson. I like him. He's easy, simple, and gets the job done. Everythings straight foward, and he doesn't seem too bad to listen to. I don't know anybody in that class. Survey of Mathematics with Grone. She laughs at her own jokes. The black girl is hilarious. Me and Brittany V. will have a good time with this class. Spanish with Karnatski. I think this spanish is going to be too easy for me..but I'm sure there is plenty my teachers forgot to teach me and a review sure couldn't hurt. This class is small, and I don't know anybody, but all the people seem really easy to talk to, and I sorta started to just slightly fit in with the group right away. It was cool. I don't want to be at school. I miss the beach. Its pouring outside. Me and Erin are going to Lucky Lady tomorrow. 40% off. I like the rain. I want to go outside. Still, I'm wishing Mario was next to me. I don't know why I fall for the wrong guys all the time. It is a horrible habit. Well, I guess I'm good for now. I wrote about what I really wanted to. Good night.