Today was the shittyest day of my life....to much went on tonight!!!! i couldn't stop crying it was horrible cops here n everything i just couldn't stop...but finally i relaxed when dave calmed me down on the phone then when they took him away i was doing so much better because i figured i could go on with my life...finally live a normal life... n most of all... my mom would be happy but no....i don't get to have a happy ending.....she went to go pick his sorry ass up!!! idk y the hell she did that!! i would have fuckin kicked him out!!! for all the damn shit he put us threw....i mean......ugh!!!! just cuz he crys n says he's fuckin sorry well uk what!!! HE DOESN'T MEAN IT!! i can tell..i can tell....he says that way to much n for christmas...he said he would be the bestest husband ever....i mean WTF WAS THAT SHIT ABOUT!??!?? seriously!?!?! ugh when i c him i'm gonna go crazy....i don't want him here...seriously after talkin it over i think it would work out for the best that he wasn't here n he was just gone ik that sounds mean...but i seriously think it's true it's time to just realize the truth n admit it leave me sum loving the only highlight of my day was ::Him:: < 3 2-7-05 < 3 LUV U BUNCHES!!