this is tha continuation of wut imma call tha muthafuckin truf..tha beginnin ofa legacy of which i speak nuthin but wut i feel no matta wut ppl may think of say so u still think ur ready huh? u think u cud handle tha fire thas in me. sum ppl juss will neva learn will they sum ppl will neva come 2 a realization that they r nowhere near my level wen comparing my mind 2 others..but b4 i get in2 wut i gotta say imma hav 2 sho sum love 2 my nigga, fellow uc, and my son steve...prolly tha only known force who can wif stand tha pain tha only known person who can truly say i kno wutcha mean...mad respect 4 ya. ight...eva since i started puttin these entries on hurr, puttin shit on private ppl hav asked me wuts tha dilly-o wtf is up wif me y am i talkin like this and sum ppl hav tha nerve 2 say wut ive sed wut ive thought was kinda bogus...all i gotta say is man fuck that shit..thas wut im talkin bout ppl juss aint ready 4 dis shit ppl rite away act so ignorant wen i start 2 come out my shell they act like im sum kinda alien or sum shit but in reality u fuckers juss aint capable of understandin me..ppl r soo used 2 me bein tha funny guy tha guy who stands thurr seemingly not bein phased but shit and yea i like 2 think im that person i like 2 think that i can withstand shit but it juss dont work like that idk y its so hard 2 comprehend that MCF feels pain mayb harder then most but mayb its a shock 2 ppl cuz i hide it so well i keep my pain, feelings and thoughts so well hidden, i put a lid on all that shit a lid thas pickle jar tight and will only open wen EYE want it 2 and wen i start twistin tha cover open exposing who i am slightly muthafukers get all wide eyed and shocked "ooh no this cant b, not mario" fuck dat its who i am and all those ppl who hav sed they liked who i am i bet cha any amount of money if they reely kne me more then 50% of them wudnt feel da same way mayb they wud cuz i can b funny i can b all those thangs ppl think i am but it juss wuddnt b 100% true i am deeper then that..and if ppl cant deal wif that then fuck em..and i juss wish ppl wud grasp tha fact that thurr is soooo much anger built up inside me so much hate pain disgust so much shit i dont wanna expose but i cant cuz ppl aint ready AND im scared..scared of wut will happen 2 ppl i hold close will think wen they c me wif no curtain 2 hide the truf no lid 2 conceal my feelings... thought i was done..? i aint finished i still hav a lil unfinished business wif sum1 in particular..idk u thought u was put away i havent forgotten...these pass cuple days hav made me realize that u werent who i thought u were..u say that its hard 2 hav things this way and u say u hate not talkin 2 ur friends and u say u wish thangs wud back 2 normal...and all i say 2 that is wtf is holdin u bac u say u cant come bac on ur deal cuz blah blah blah ive come 2 realize i juss dont hav time or giv a fuck bout excuses or wut explanations u hav cuz U r greedy plain n fuckin simple thinkin of only urself wut was best 4 u makin bullshit ass deals 4 ur own self pleasure not evn thinkin of wut tha consequences wud b and now that ur seein sum of them u wanna say that u wish thangs wuddnt b this way but if u truly did wish that then u wuddnt still b in that same predicament..and mayb u thought that ur decision wuddnt affect me in such a way but this only proves (again) that uve become drenched wif ignorance that its unreel...thurr was a time wen i thought that u cud b sumthin special that u wuddnt throw our friendship away i thought ud b thurr 4 me 4eva guess back then i was tha one wif tha ignorance cuz look wuts happened, juss look at it i want cha 2 sit bac 4 a cuple hours and juss look at wuts happened juss think of it juss try 2 remember wut exactly uve done and mayb juss mayb ull see tha shit i see... sumthin that ppl shud kno...do tha math, do tha research, reduce it 2 its lowest terms, find tha square root, graph that shit, map it out, use a protractor, study it, do wuteva u want u still aint gonna figure me out....i leave u wif that..til tha next one