I feel like for four years I have not experienced too much drastic change. And then, out of no where, right at the end of first semester of Senior year, my life went crazy.

I am that girl, who always had a plan for everything, who controlled her life perfectly. Last semester, I did my student teaching in fourth grade. I loved every minute of it, and was sad to go when it ended. I hate being a student again, though!! It seemed like everything was on track, I was reaffirmed in what I wanted to do, on the course to do Peace Corps, and having a pretty uneventful last year. Then, in 24 hours, things got turned upside down...

One my last day official day at the school, I got a phone call during lunch from the Peace Corps. They offered me a nomination for either Asia or Central/South America! I was extatic. There were some big choices, because of Reen's wedding in June, but this was what I had been waiting for!

The next day was XC formal and that's where things got interesting. That's where I met Nick. Yeah- I had actually met him before as he was on the team, but this was different. He kissed me that night- the first time I had been kissed since highschool. We went on a date, talked over break, and he came to New Year's in Blo-No. I really felt torn, because I liked this guy a lot, but I felt like it was impractical to get involved knowing I was leaving the country in 6 months, for 2 years.

Steph was sympathetic to my cunundrum, but told me 6 months was 1/2 a year- I should be that lucky to make it to then. I am glad I took her, and others' advice to just take a chance, because this has turned out to be the best thing that could have happened to me.

In three years here, I haven't come even close to going out with anybody, how is it that I fell in love right as I am supposed to be on the way out? I would put it at about 2 weeks when he first said, whle we were lying in each other's arms, "Maggie... I love you." And, terrified I whispered back, "I think I love you too." I don't think that anymore- I know it deep inside myself.

In just over a month, I have changed so much. He brings out joy and a wildness in me I didn't even know was trapped. He is sweet, thoughtful, very smart, hardworking, treats his mama right, is responsible, funny, talented, and damn good looking to. He loves me just the way I am- even after practice, ungroomed or at my worst. When he looks at me, I believe I am beautiful and special. I have never been so attracted to another person.

Everybody asks what we are going to do about the Peace Corps- never mind that he has 10 more years of school. I can't ask him to wait 27 months- I love him too much. But I can't imagine breaking this off. Could an infant relationship really make it long distance for so long? He makes me believe it could- rationality be damned! I can't say. But for now, I will enjoy being in love.