i was reading this thing on cuttin and i guess im not so hyper nemore. i dont know what to do ive havent cut since march and i dont know i want but god its so awful. and almost all my friends do and i feel like i caused someone too and know im almost causing her to do other things and i hate that yet i can stop it cause its like with or without me shit i know my lifes not as messed up as some but it feels like it and im still not making sense i wish i could stop everything and hide away im good at that but not good enough i sick of everything shit fuck all the curses of of every curse book wow im so fricking lame screw it mabye i will just withdraw and hide and stop talking to everyone it stops the pain cause no one can hurt u if u arent there to be hurt