i haven't been on this site in a while, but i decided to come back. i don't know. i was in need of a place to vent. things have changed alot since the last time i was here. i'm seeing this lady, which pretty much blows. i'm going to school at a mental hospital. i have been in a rut with my writing. seems like everything i do turns out shitty. met a guy. was used. but i don't feel like getting into that. probably later on in this diary i'll rant about it. who knows. i feel like a big dirtbag most of the time. this stupid prozac isn't working. i don't know. and i dont want to say anything. i don't want jennifer thinking she's wasting her time. Some good stuff is happening though. i mean, i've been going to alot of amazing concerts. i'm involved in a webzine so i go backstage, meet bands and interview them. Ashlee's going to get me into merch when i'm legal. tomorrow i'm suppose to go and have a phone interview with ben from billy talent. we'll see how that turns out. Steph might be moving back in maybe. scott moved out, got his own place. so it would be less lonely if she does follow through and move in for a couple of months. mostly i'm worried about going to school tomorrow. jennifer may or may not be coming to my house at 830? i have no fucking idea. i should listen more. i was trying to get her off the phone as fast as i could. so anyways. hopefully i'll be using this often. ♥ rock off.