so, today was by far, the worst day in a while. i've havent cried that much in ages. everything just went to shit about today. i got blown off by ryan. then things with cory didnt pan out because i'm a jerk. then god. i went to the embassy, after my sister promised she'd go, she blew me off too, and i waited for an hour, alone. Finally he shows up, but i was waiting for my dad anyways. so it didnt matter. i saw him for 20 minutes. his gf was there, and i realized, he's not that great. i can do so much better than a cheater. jesus, i hope so. so anyways, i'm off my pills, maybe that's why my life feel so god damn shitty right now. i'm outta pills. i'm outta school. i'm outta my mind. and it sucks. so i'm not sure what the fuck i'm doing. my life is just one big fuck up. ahhh. this blows. so in conclusion. i suck. --------------- ♥