I HAVE THIS NEW GUY FRIEND AND HAVE BENN TALKING WOR SOME WEEKS NOW. I HAVE KNOW HIM SINCE HE WAS IN SEVENTH AND I WAS IN EGTH. HE IS OLDER THAN ME HE BIRTHDAY WAS LATE THAT IS WHY HE IS IN A GRADE UNDER ME. ANYWAYS BASCAILLY I AM CONFUSED ABOUT HIM, I DON'T UNDERSTAND HIM AT ALL. ITS LIKE HE SAYD HE LOVE ME AND HE CARES. ITS JUST THAT HE DOSN'T WANT TO COME SEE ME ENLESS HE IS GETTING SOMETHING FOR COMING OVER. AND HE ALREADY KNOWS THAT I AM NOT IN ANY HURRY AT ALL TO GIVE UP MY VIRGINTY. AND HE UNDERSTANDS. SO I BROUGHT UP THE IDEA WHAT IF WE HAD AN OPEN RELATIONSHIP. WERE WE ARE TOGETHER BUT WE CAN SEE OTHER PEOPLE. I TOLD HIM THAT I DIDN'T MIND IF WENT WITH OTHER GURLS OR IF HE HAD SEX WITH THEM. BECUASE HE KNOWS THAT I AM NJOT READY FOR ANY OF THAT AND THAT IF SOME OTHER GURL CAN DO THE THINGS THAT I AM NOT READY FOR THAN I DON'T MIND. BUT HE TOLD ME THAT HE DOSN'T WANT TO DO IT WITH ANY ONE ELSE JUST ME. AND ME I DON'T TRUST GUYS AT ALL CAUSE I BELIEVE THAT THEY ARE ALL LIERS. THE ONLY GUY THAT I WILL EVER TRUST AND HAVE EVER TRUSTED IS MY LIFE IS MARTIN. I HAVEKNOW HIM FOUR THREE YEARS NOW AND THAT IS LIKE THE BROTHER I NEVER I HAD AND I LOVE HIM TO DETH. BUT ANYWAYS I AM JUST SO CONFUSED CAUSE HOW CAN HE LOVE ME IF HE DOSN'T EVEN WANT TO SEE ME ENLES HE GET SOMETHING. LIKE THURSDAY IS EARLE REALES DAY SO I TOLD HIM THAT I WOULD COME OVER AFTER SCHOOL AND CHILL WITH HIM AT HIS HOUSE. HE SAID I CAN BUT I AM GOIGN TO LET HIM HIT ME YOU KNOW HAVE SEX. AND I TOLD HIM NO. MEAN THIS GUY WAS MY FRIST KISS. WELL I DON'T UNDERSTAND I GUESS I WILL STILL GO OVER HIS HOUSE BUT I AM SCARED HE MAY THINK THAT IS A SIGN SAYING I AMREADY TO GO FUTHER. WELL GOT TO GO TRY TO GET BEACK HERE AND GIVE UPDATES WHEN EVER.