WELL I HAVE TWO MORE WEEKS TILL IM BACK IN SCHOOL. THIS SUCKS SO BAD. I AM REALLY NOT READY FOR THE SUMMER TO END. i MEAN NORMALLY I CAN'T WAIT TO GEY BACK TO SCHOOL. BUT NO.... ME HAVING A BOYFRIEND AND ACTUALLY TRYING TO HAVE A REALTIONSHIP IS GOING TO BE TO MUCH TO HANDLE ALONG WITH SCHOOL. I HAVE ALWAYS BEEN SO FOCUSED TOWARD SCHOOL. SCHOOL HAS KEPTED ME OCUIPED FOR DESTRACTION. WELL ITS NOT LIKE I CAN'T HANDLE THIS. I MEAN I WAS JOGGLING 6 GUYS AT ONUCE. ONE TIME, I GUESS MY BOYFRIEND AND SCHOOL. WONT BE THAT HARD TO JOGGLE. AND THE THING IS WITH THIS GUY I AM GOING WITH I REALLY, REALLY, REALLY LIKE HIM. AND ITS WERIED CAUSE I NORMALLY JUST THINKING GUYS ARE BEST IF USED AS TOYS. BUT WITH HIM ITS DIFFRENT I HAVE BEEN HONEST WITH HIM FROM THAT STRAT. I TOLD HIM THINGS I HAVE NEVER TOLD ANY GUY I HAVE EVER GONE WITH. I ACTUALLY AM THINKING ABOUT GIVING HIM A CHANCE TO COME IN MY HEART. ITS VERY SCARY. BUT IAM TIRED OF PLAYING GAMES. EVEN THOUGH SOME TIMES THERE FUN. I GUESS I WILL JUST SAVE THEM FOR MY BOYFRIEND. WHEN THE TIME IS RIGHT. AND HE IS EVEN CONSEDERATE ABOUT THE FACT OF ME BEING A VIRIGIN. WHICH EVERYONE KNOWS MOST MEN OR BOYS WHAT EVER U CALL THEM PREFOER SOME WITH MORE EXPERINCE WELL AT LEAST THAT IS WHAT I HAVE HEARED.OHHH THIS SUCKS SO BAD I REALLY DON'T NEED ALL THIS CONFUSION NOW. SCHOOL IS GOING TO BE SO HARD FOR ME THIS YEAR. aNY WAYS JOURNAL I AM GOING TO RUN I HAVE TO CALL MY BABY NOW AND SEE WHAT HE IS UP TOO. IM OUT!