WELL I HAVE SOMETHING TO SAY BUT DON'T KNOW HOW TO SAY. WELL I WAS GOING WITH THIS GUY NAMED JAMAL I NEW HIM FOR ABOUT TWO YEARS BUT DIDN'T REALLY START TALKING TILL THE HURRICANES STARED HITTING. MAYBE EVEN A LITTLE EARLIER. ANYWAYS ME AND HIM HAVN'T REALLY TALKING IN AWHILE. I FOUND OUT YESTERDAY THAT HE HAS A GIRL FRIEND. MY SISTER TOLD ME AND THAT THEY WERE GOING TOGETHER SINCE SHE WAS IN 6TH. AND WHAT REALLY SUPPRISED ME WAS THAT I LET HIM DO THINGS TO ME THAT I LET NOT OTHER GUY DO TO ME. NO WE DID NOT HAVE SEX. I AM STILL CLEAN. I AM MEAN I DON'T THINK I AM THAT HURT JUST DISAPPONITED. CAUSE I MEAN WHEN WE WERE GOING TOGETHER I EVEN TOLD HIM THAT HE COULD TALK TO OTHER GIRLS THAT WILL DO THINGS THAT I WANT DO. I TOLD HIM THAT WOULD NOT BOTHER ME AT ALL. THE LAST TIME I EVEN SAW HIM WAS WHEN I WENT TO HIS HOUSE FOR TWO DAY AFTER HURRICANE JEANNE HIT. THOSE WERE I THINK THE BEST DAYS I HAVE SINCE ME PATRYING AND JOYRIDEING WITH ASIA. AND I MEAN AFTER THAT I DIDN'T HERE FROM HIM FOR AWHILE. HIS BROTHER CALLED ME AND HE LIKED MT TOO. I KNEW THAT BUT PAYED HIM NO MIND CAUSE I THOUGHT HE WOULD GET THE HINT I WASN'T INTRSETED. SO ME AND HIM GOT IN A CONFLICT ON THE PHONE AND HAVN'T HEARED FROM HIM OR HIS BROTHER. THEN MONDAY I FIND OUT HE HAS A GIRLFRIEND. HE CALLED I CONGRULATED HIM ON THAT. EVEN THOUGH THAT GIRL GAVE MORE RIDES THAN GRAY HOUND. MY SISTER WAS MAKEING FUN HIM AND HER CAUSE THEY DIDN'T MAKE A GOOD COUPLE AT ALL. BUT I AM NOT THAT TYPE OF PERSON TO SIT THERE AND TALK ABOUT SOME I AM NOT THAT MEAN. NOW I HAVE TO TELL MY FRIENDS ROGER,ASIA,AND MARTIN. BUT I AM SCARED BECAUSE ROGER WILL WANT TO KILL HIMA AND ASIA WILL TELL HER BOYFRINED WHO IS ALSO A FRIEND OF MIND. MARTIN WOULD DO SOMETHING BUT HE ALL THE WAY IN ALABAMA IF I ASKED THOUGHT HE WOULD COME OR IF IT SOMETHING ELSE WORSE. BUT I KNOW IF I TELL THEM THEY MAY TROW IT ALL OUT OF PROPORTION. THATS IS WHY I DON'T LET MY SELF GET ATTACHED TO GUYS. IF ANYTHING ALL WE WILL BE IS FRIENDS. I HAVE ONLY TRUSTED ONE GUY IN MY WHOLE LIFE AND ONLY HIM. I GUESS I WILL BE VIRGIN FOR AWHILE. CAUSE AT LEAST I WANT IT TO BE WITH SOME I KNOW AND TRUSTED AND WHO AFTERWARDS WANT LEAVE AND DO WHAT MOST GUYS DO. WERE WHEN WE SHARE THAT MOMENT AFTERWARDS WE AN STILL BE FRIENDS. WELL THAT WANT BE NO TIME SOON.