WELL THERE ARE SO MANT NEW THINGS THAT ARE JUST HGAPPENEING IN MY LIFE RIGHT IT SO RIDICUSLY. FOR INSTANCE MY NEW BF, WELL SEEING AS HOW HE JUST BACK THE BF YESTERDAY THINGS HAVE JUST GOT ALITTLE TO CONFUSING. I MEAN REALLY DO LIKE HIM. ITS JUST SOMETHING IS NOT THERE. HE IS SO SWEET EVERYTHING PHYSICAL I DESIRE. IT'S JUST THAT I FEEL SO UNSURE ABOUT HIM. I MEAN THE WAY HE ASKED ME FELT LIKE IT WAS JUST IN THE SPURE OF THE MOMMENT. AND IT JUST HAVE MY DOUBUTS. EVERYONE I GUESS DOSE ITS JUST THAT THIS ALWAYS HAPPENS. AND I HAVE LOST SO MANY GOOD MEN BY ALL MY DOUBTS. IT'S LIKE I CAN'T HELP BUT WONDER WHAT WILL BECOME OF US. I REALLY AM JUST TO WORRIED ABOUT ALL THE THINGS THAT COULD POSSIBLE GO WRONG. I TRY SO HARD TO SAY TO MYSELF THINGS WILL BE OKAY. WE WILL POBABLLY MAKE IT ON THIS TRAIN. BUT I AM JUST SO WORRIED THAT WE MAY HAVE SOME TYPE ENGEIN PROBLEM AND WE WONT EVEN BE ABLE TO LEAVE THE STATION. WHY DOSE THIS ALWAYS HAPPEN TO ME WHY DO I ALWAYS DOUBT BEFORE TRYING. I FEEL SO HELPLESS LOST IN THE NEGATIVITY CYCLE. I FEEL LIKE IM ON A TRAIN OF DOUBT BY MYSELF AND I DON'T KNOW HOW TO STOP IT AND I'M TO SCARED TO JUMP OFF. AND TO SCARED TO LET ANY COME AND STOP IT. I JUST WISH ONE DAY, SOME PERSON COULD JUST STOP THIS TRAIN SO WERE I CAN COME UP FOR A DEEP BREATH. IF HE IS THE ONE TO STOP THIS TRAIN I HOPE HE DOSE IT SOON CAUSE WE WANT MAKE IT PASS DAY 2. I'M TO LOST IN DOUBT.