well i told my friend caris about what happened that night. the girl who use to go with chris. and supprisingly she wasn't mad at all. she was quiet happy i told her instead of some one else telling her. i caould not keep that in any longer and it just felt so much better telling regardless of how she would of responed. so we both disscused everything, and it went well. we are stil closer than ever. and i thank god for that. cause she is the type of person who will tewll the truth no matter if it hurts. yah but now there is even more drama at work for me.this boy who i thought was desent and kinda. and all i did was kiss him. well he went back and lied on me and said that i wanted to sucjk his dick an do all this stuff with him. First off i am virgin and will be for some time. and any one who knows me will tell you that i think oral sex both ways is just the most horrible thing in the world to me. i mean my best friend roger will even tell you that it is just nasty to me. my firends want even talk about about it in front of me. this really hurt me finding this out. i mean i knew all guys were just scum. well maybe not all men. this really hurt me tough cause no one has ever said anything bad about me not this bad anyways. anyways i guess i will move on but it is really hard. and this boy has the nerve to actually call my phone to talk to me. oh i have a question for any one. hoe do you block someones number off a cell phone? My best friend roger wants to whopp his ass. iam so coffuesed fustrated but also releaved about telling her. any ways i hope eveyrone who is reading this diary is doing ok.