YESTERDAY ALL THESE THINGS WERE JUST RUSHING THROUGH MY MIND. AND THEY STILL ARE, I MEAN THEY HAVE CALMED DOWN A BIT. BUT I CAN'T LIE AND SAY THAT I AM STILL NOT FEELING DOUBT, SCARED, AFRAID. GOD, HE JUST SO WONDERFULL AND I JUST FEEL THAT I DON'T FIT HIS EXPECTATIONS. I MEAN I KNOW IF I DIDN'T HE WOULDN'T OF ASKED, BUT IT IS STILL THAT DOUBT THERE THAT I DO PRAY SOON LEAVES. BUT THIS MORRNING WHEN I WOKE UP I FELT ALOT BETTER. I WAS ON THE PHONE WITH MY BABY FROM LIKE 11-1:47 THIS MORRNING. GOT BUSTED TO BY MY MOM. BUT SHE FORGAVE ME. I DON'T KNOW IT LIKE WHEN I AM AWAY FROM HIM FOR SO LONG MY DOUBTS GROW MORE BUT SO DOSE MY WANTS TO FOR HIM. I MEAN LIKE RIGHT NOW I WANT HIM SO MUCH I JUST WANT HIM TO HOLD ME BUT WHEN HE DOSE I WANT HIM TO LET GO CAUSE I FEEL I AM FALLING TO FAR DEEP WITH HIM. TO PLACE WERE I AM TO SCARED TO GO. AND THAT IS THE MOST HORRIFYING THING IN THE WORLD TO ME IS TO LET SOMEONE IN AND BREAK ALL MY BOUNDARIES. I GUESS THIS WIL BE THE ONLY SET BACK IN MY LIFE THAT WANT BE ABLE TO OVER COME.