I can't think straight when I think about her, when i'm around her I can't think straight. Little things she does make me feel weird, I know it's not love. Maybe paranoia. Maybe... She went all dizzy and started coughing, she looked like she was going to faint. We were doing colours ceremony (at cadets) so I couldn't even go over and make sure she was alright. I got hot and felt scared that she might be in danger. When we kiss and "make out", there is no world, there's just a platform in heaven with only me and her. I've been with her 3 weeks, I only see her 2 nights a week anyway. Why the hell am I so attached already? It makes me look defenseless and clingy, like I need her. Well I don't need her, I know i'll be perfectly fine if we split. It's just as we're together, it's worse. But I know that I prefer it.