Talking to Alex. He reminded me. When I used to have my cabin bed, there was a hollow space behind it as it was next to the wall. It was dark and kinda small so I used to go behind there all the time. I had a large notebook. I used to write about people, my feelings, who I hated, who I fancied etc all in this book. I kept it a secret and only showed one or two really close friends. Dunno, just reminded me of it, made me think.