Yeah, i'm neutral at the moment. Yet my brain is all over the place. I feel intoxicated, altered, drunk on thought. I can't concentrate on one thing. I'm flowing through every thought, picking without choosing. Must be careful what I settle on though, could tip me one way or the other. Might suddenly go upbeat and happy, down, depressed, or cynical. I'll settle on thoughtful shall I. I've been thinking. Thoughts I can't say simply because they don't make sense out of my head, I can't even get them from my mind to my fingers. I don't want to face anyone in this world but one single person. That person is me. I look a state, feel a state. My door's open, my light is on. But I feel like i'm alone in darkness. It's a refreshing loneliness. But i'm longing to see somebody, that person most speshil to me. What a contradiction. 'I don't want to face anyone in this world...' yet 'i'm longing to see somebody.' I don't want to read into this too much. I bet this entry makes me sound insane. Maybe this should be the private one..