im in mass now. i left on sunday. it was a rough day for me i thought i would have been fine but turns out i wasnt. when i had everything ready to go i went and woke kyndle up and gave her a hug and we said our goodbyes. my eyes teared up soo badly but i tried to hold back the tears. then dustins mom gave me a hug and it was a nice hug one i havent gotten from her in a long time. it actually had meaning in it. well i started balling. i mean. i just got home and i was leaving again. kinda sucks. i was going to be without dustin and we just spent every day for 9 months together. i knew it was going to be hard. but i just didnt think i could leave, at least not for that long. but i sucked it up and got in the car and took off. the highway was flooded and i almost died a few times but i made it here alive and well. grammy seems to be doing good. people still think shes my sister. no joke. haha i love it. weve done a little shoppin here and there because dustins dumb dad threw away the bag that had all my summer clothes in it. asshole. so saturday morning....really early her and i take off for florida. were driving. im excited. ive never drivin through these states before so i think it will be nice to see. grammy said i would love new york. [note to self: buy a camera for pictures]. its funny. everytime i hear new york i think about kyndle. i wonder why. well ive been feeling shitty for about a week now so im gonna go chill. it will probably be a while until i write again so youll have to make way without me. <3 [not that anyone reads this]