time is moving to catch up with it. I feel like I am spinning on a top and I can't hold on to it much longer. The spinning is the life that I dont understand. My grasp is of what I had but is now gone and everything else is the happenings of my new unknown life that I am going to be jumping into. I like someone new. I am scared. I dont know how to approach him because he likes me but he is having a hard time moving on to a new relationship and it is something I really want. I had a good break and I miss those that I didnt get to see and those that I did see because I miss having the time I had to spend with them like before. Its my spinning top and I think I am starting to jump on to solid ground. I might fall but one thing I know is that I have many people out there that will help pick me up off the ground and allow me to share the glory of life with. I know that I will never do anything to hurt myself because I am happy with everything even though I am not with someone I feel like I can just fly right now. I have my own wings and I can travel anywhere that I want right now because well I dont know. I just feel complete and I think I am ready to lift myself up off the ground. so much is going on. but yea I feel like I am saying the same thing over and over again but I dont know what it is that I want right now. but then I do I want to be in his arms I can almost feel it and it feels so good!! ttyl byebye yall. C