I have moments where I feel lost but then I have moments where I no longer feel like I have to worry about anything. Obssessed with moments and time. I figured I would be. I doubt this makes sence at all but it will help me in the long run to just vent. I am confused only in certain situations and I over analyze. I break down everything for more than it is worth and I throw away anything that I feel I no longer need. I can be annoying and quiet I tell it like it is sometimes or keep it to myself. But in the long run I have a way of letting the person know the truth, I am not sure of myself at moments and others I feel like nothing has or will ever change. my life tosses and turns like a rickety old boat. I dont know what love is. nor do I feel like I will ever be loved. I seem like a downer but if you know me I like to make people happy and that in turn is what keeps me going. I believe in having a passion and I believe in working hard for what you get. I dont think it is right to give a half ass job when the others around are trying to keep you afloat. I feel like a hypocrite sometimes, I know a lot and I know a little. life is to complicated for answers just respond with questions. time is to short for me to sit on my ass all day and right in a diary that is not being reread. I want to be loved and I want to learn to love. I feel like I am ready to go home, I want to get some surprises for my birthday, I usually say one thing and mean another. I like to take showers. I believe in second third and forth chances I dont want to judge anyone. I dont always keep my own secrets when I tell others to keep them. I dont know why I am doing this. Why does he not like me. should I give him space. if I died would anyone care.