Everyday time seems to change and lingers into a new direction. I dont understand where I might go, what I might be, or who I will become. I face eachday different and I use past experiences. Yet, it seems to not do anything. I learned to feel and how to be real. but, I also learned that I am not complete.I look around at each morning each day and each night and see what I might better. Yet it seems to not do anything. I work hard at what I want to learn and work even hard at what might challenge me. I look for excuses andhave imperfections. Yet, it seems not to do anything. Fading in the background of my own life I try to watch what might happen. I want to find that person that is trying to break out of the rusty old shell. I want to break out of the shell that protects me from any pain, anger, sadness, and love. Lose the ability to be a coward in my own skin. I want to break out of the rusty shell and learn to trust the ones around me. I want to feel the parts of life that have been hidden. I want to find the people that have trust in me. I want to break out of the shell that protects me from life.