As it is... Right now it is not a very good day. I got worn out after lunch, which means I'm quiet and sleepy for the rest of the afternoon. I slept for a while, but then I had to go pee, and while I was peeing, I got tired of myself. It made my breathing wrong and my head hurt. Now I'm living in the aftermath of all those memories, and it is making my fingers numb. I cant type right cause my fingers go in the wrong places, and they put letters in the wrong order. I had a bad night on Wednesday, I havn't had a bad night in months, years even. So now I'm putting this here because my eyes hurt. Because right now, life just doesn't seem like a game I'm interested in playing. I remember bad things I've sad to good people who have done bad things to me. I wish I could forgive cody. I wish cody could forgive me. I could say something to him, but I don't feel like a very good person right now so I wont. I don't feel like a very good Christian either. I havn't been feeling like much since today started. I wish today hadn't started.