when the days draw closer to the day, I notice thats feeling of emptyness getting deeper and more out of control. Some days I feel like a simple wind would fly me away... but it always rains, and its so hard to fly away with the rain pushing you back towards earth. April 6th seems to far away to be real. its just another day. Just another shitty day. a day that carries so much freaking pain. I mean, it is so unfair, I didn't hardly know him. I wa sonly two! My brothers knew him. I don't even remember his voice. and it hurts so bad......