My mom will never get it. My eyes hurt so bad that I keep getting these god-awful headaches and i get all motion sickness and she thinks I need glasses. little does she know. It is so close to the day, its on Wednesday... and my eyes hurt from holding back tears... I'm just so scared that If I cry now I'll never stop... I have to wait until I'm in the shower, so then when she sees my red eyes she'll think its from soap or something. I don't know how I'm gonna get through school this week, I cant stop thinking about it and I get so upset that I make myslef sick. So on wednesday it will be 11 years since my dad died, I hardley even knew him. I dont even understand how this happened, I mean, I cant begin to describe what went wrong... My mom has never understood why hate Winchester so much, but he died here, who wants to be in a place that holds all the memories from the past. We drive by the place he died everytime we go to Lexington and I have a hard time understanding why mom never moved us as far away from here as she possibly could.