Well I am feeling better today, my heart still has that heavy feeling to it. But I am not letting it show. I was glad when I talked with some one who I won't mention. She helped me get through this, and said everything will be all right. Anyways I called the recruiter today and Nick my recruiter comes back next week. He said that he will talk with Nick to see if I can move my shipped date up to like right after graduation. I also decided I am not looking for a long term relationship anymore, they just don't seem to work out haha. So I decided to wait till I am out of the Navy for one. So right now I really don't know what to do with my love life, I will probably just flirt that's about it. I tried to flirt today but my heart just wasn't ready to do that. I am also going to patch things up with another one of my exs Carla becuase I have been a real ass to her latly and I know why. She is like the only person who has ever gotten me to fully open up. I feel bad because she really wanted to stay friends and I was just so blind I coulnd't see she is great to talk to also. Well gotta run! SeE~yAH 4 now! ~John~