well... im just sitting here and doin nothing...im about to light a smoke....its such a bad habit but cant help it at times like this...newho i went to the bar tonight to try to get my mind off of things...it didnt work too well...the more i tried not to think about my gramma the more i thought about her...i heard my dad crying the other day...i dont kno about you...but when my dad cries thats it im done for...i cried myself to sleep the other day...its sooo hard losing someone youve known your whole life...newho ima jet...peace!