im extremely frustrated. my life has been going down the drain for months and i have been struggling to keep things together. today is a day that i want to give up. i dont have a car. i have a job. but no way to get there. i dont have a steady ride. so, i ultimately will lose my job. i cant buy a car. because i have no money. i try to save up money, but i lose my job, because i have no car. i dont go to school. i have no money for school. i have no ride to school. i have low motivation. im still doing drugs. im a fucking drug addict. im destined to be a fucking loser, i make myself sick. i just stay high to forget about all the stupid shit going on.