I just don't understand and I have been saying that I don't for the whole night. I went to see Miss Saigon tonight and just got back a few minutes ago, but the whole way home, I talked to my dad about how he fought in Vietnam. He has never talked to me about it before, and he said it was because the stuff that went on during it is too terrible to imagine. I talked to him about how I don't really understand why it was fought. I mean, I know it was a war of America fighting communism in Vietnam, but why...WHY did Americans torchure the Vietnamese while they were there when they were trying to FIGHT the PAIN that the Vietnamese were already sufferung. And why did the Vietnamese torchure the Americans if we were trying to help them? Then, I also don't understand why America wouldn't let Vietnamese into the country when they were trying to free them from communism. My dad said that it was because America hated the Vietnamese people and wanted them to be free in their own country...BUT WHY?!?! I was so confused and I still am. Now I wonder, if SOSO many people died in Vietnam and America got absolutely nowhere with that war, and we vowed to never fight a war like that, why are we fighting the "War Against Terrorism" now? I DON'T UNDERSTAND. I have been crying for the past 30 minutes, because I just can't understand why we are causing so much pain and suffering in those countries with both our soldiers and theirs. I know that we have built so much in the middle east, but I cannot decide if one martyr is the price to pay for the education of 12 people. SHould I have to be able to decide? I wish there was some way I could make a difference in teh world. But before I do that, I just want to UNDERSTAND... I am so confused right now, and I wish SO badly that there were answers to all of my questions...definate answers...like formulas in math. But what scares me is that I know there aren't answers. WHY? The thought of never knowing what the real purpose for all of this is just makes me crazy. I can't stop crying. I never thought I would be so compassionate about a political subject, but I realize it is not just polotics. It is the way people are forced to live...and I am so frightened.