I haven't written in an entire month. So, a lot has happened since the last time i wrote. In a nutshell, school started, I have been really tired all the time, I have a lot of Beauty and the Beast rehearsals, and we had auditions for West Side Story at school. West Side Story auditions were probably the most exciting of the events just listed, and even they didn't end up how I had hoped. I got called back to sing and act for Maria, but I ended up not getting the part. My drama teacher told me it was because my range vocally isn't high enough. That is probably true, but I wasted a lot of my life crying over not getting that part. okay, well like, two and a half hours, but that is still a lot to me. So, I ended up getting a role in the ensemble...just like all the other shows I have been in...including the current one, Beauty and the Beast. Speaking of which, I really can't stand beauty and the Beast. I am only in two scenes and it is just really annoying not having a significant part at all. I ahve been there so many nights and teh cast isn't even fun. there are only like 5 people in that cast that I actually enjoy being around. I feel so negative about it all, but I just don't know what else to do. So, I decided taht I might as well make the best of this experience, so I am going to buy a journal and keep it of all my experiences backstage and also just during everyday life. I will write in it from more of an actor's perspective, though, so not everything in it is just pointless and completely gossipy, but so I will actually have something exciting and meaningful to look back on after the show is over and whenever I just feel like thinking of something creatively. The problem is, I don't really know how to format the journal. I don't exactly know how much I should limit it to being just about acting things or if it should be about other things too. I have been really insecure about my voice lately. I think it is ever since the West Side Story auditions when I was told it wasn't high enough, so I am going to start vocalizing every day like i'm supposed to, just so it will improve. I realllly realllly want to sleep in tomorrow, but I have to be at work at 7:30. Wow, my work makes me sick of pancakes real fast. haha. Hopefully my cool cousin Heyward will be working tomorrow! That's all I can think of to look forward to tomorrow. oh ya, before I go, I wanna say something about the Hurricane relief. I just pray that people survive and that our student council's efforts at school are worthwhile and that our school is able to help out a lot with raising money for fundraisers. I am going to bed now...after I take my shower...ick. GOODNIGHT!