Well, I am FINALLY updating after a two month absence or something like that. It feels good to be writing in the old SD again. Beauty and the Beast has actually gotten to the point in the run where I like it, I have fun being in it, and I will actually miss it when it is over. I won't necessarily miss the actual show as much as I will miss being onstage all the time and miss the people. I really love everybody in that show. Of course, there are exceptions, but we won't go there. ha. I have been thinking about it a lot lately and the other day I told someone that it will be nice to "have a life" again. but then I realized, this IS my life. When I am not in a show, I really don't party or do anything as fun ever. I mean, i do hang out with friends SOMETIMES which is enjoyable, but when i think about it, I guess I don't party or go places with people because people don't invite me. I am not sure why things hve started to be this way. I try to tell myself it is because everyone knows I'm really busy, but I know that is not the reason. I guess I really have sort of lost a lot of my friends as time has gone by. It isn't anyone's fault really, it is just sort of growing and changing in everybody, but it really depresses me. Well, as partying goes, I can't wait til Kimmy's halloween party. People at school are having one the same night, but of course, I wasn't invited. But i probably wouldn't have fun at that one anyway. So, in the school department, I guess I'm not doing as well as I should. We have a drama competition this saturday that I am really nervous about, because we barely EVER work in class, but I'm just gonna not stress about it if no one else in teh play is. Today though, we were running a scene where I have to cry and get really mad, and Mrs. Arvay told me to think of anything that would make me get angry and be real and so I thought of her! HAHA. I did really good once I thought of her, because I was ACTUALLY mad. Then, in English, we got our rough drafts on papers we had to write back and there were huge green marks ALL over mine. I defiantely need to take advantage of the week he gave us to change those corrections. Then, in math, I am making an 89, my first B. That is extremely upsetting. I don't know how, but I am hoping to bring that up at least a little. In my other classes, nothing significant happens. Today, I had voice and my voice was okay, but not as good as last week. I guess I was just more tense, because I had to run straight from rehearsal at school for West Side Story to voice and I was late for my lesson and I had to change in the car. I really need to start practicing more, because I know that will help me improve, I just need to learn how to make time to do it. One thing that has helped a great deal with my time management is the little book I carry in my purse that I put activities in. I always am adding stuff in class though, which is kind of distracting. West Side Story is going pretty well. I missed the dance rehearsal for working on the Dance at the Gym, because my godmother Karen came and we went ot Charleston to go shopping! That was really fun. She bought me a lot of stuff, and coincidentally, most of it was brown! I don't own anything brown, so i guess it was nice to get some brown stuff for a change. Anyway, back to West Side..my partner and I were really behind today at the dance review, so I had to learn a whole bunch of new stuff today just by watching other people(who were probably doing it wrong), so we will see how close we are to the real choreography when Cindy comes on friday. Other than choreography, West Side is coming pretty well, i guess. BUT, we only have less than a month! AH! I was supposed to start going to dance classes tonight, but I found out it is CBS's fall break, so I will wait til next week...after I get paid. I went to see 42nd street last night. It was AMAZING. Well, let me rephrase that. The dancing was AMAZING. The acting was overdone, but i got over it once I saw those hoofers dance. It really made me wish I was in tap, but I can't be in it because of work, so I might as well just forget about it. The theatre wasn't full, so my dad and I moved up like 20 rows and sat next to DiAnna, who was ushering. It was good to see her. It always is! her 22nd birthday is coming up soon and I really need to think of what to get her. Well, my schedule is extremely busy lately. I am supposed to be in some piano recital at the end of the month, and I really don't want to. I am also really bogged down with homework and studying and everything! AND, i never get to see Kirby or meagan or Annabel or Marie or ALlison or Elizabeth, and I miss all of them dearly. I saw Marcus Sheilds from governor's school when I was waiting for my mom to pick me up and he drove by. I love that kid. He is strange though, i have to hand it to him. I need to work like, on the weekdays, so i can make more money, but I don't have TIME. GOSH. There needs to be like 3 more days in a week and I wish i never got tired. haha. What a life. I hagve changed since last year....a lot it feels like. Maybe not though. Maybe just to me. I just know I feel different. Oh, and I forgot to say that I haven't seen Lucy in a while either...who I also miss.