There are so many moments in my life when I think really hard about my future. I think about what I want in life and how I can become the best person I can be in these next four years. I hope to be a wonderful, caring person, but at other times, I fail miserably at trying to become this person. In every way, I want to be incredible. I know it is not possible to be "perfect" but I just want to be the girl I think I can be...other times, I feel so unimportant...so stupid...so useless. There is no one in my life I feel like I can really talk to about this kind of stuff. It is really a deep emotion I have and I think it inhibits me from doing a lot of things I would be able to do if I didn't have thoughts like these. But, at the same time, if I did have someone who cared about these feelings I have...I probably wouldn't be able to vocalize them...or even make them make any sense. This diary entry probably makes no sense at all...I don't know how to describe what I feel sometimes....a lot of the time...