You're right,love always hurts, because love is one the only things that is TRULY important to everyone. That's why it can hurt us so easily, but you shouldn't be scared to feel loved or happy. Everything has a bad side. You can't have happiness without sadness, and you can't have love without hate. Even in relationships when you're supposed to be the most happiest, because of the extreme highs, there's extreme lows, that doesn't mean it's worth fighting for, or that you shouldn't try, EVERYTHING in life will have a side that can hurt you, you've just got to take it in your stride. And I know with what you've been through, "take it in your stride" must be like an insult.But you have to move forward. Whenever your ready. But when I say move foward, I don't mean heal in a day, I mean you take one step forward.You're right in saying he didn't love you, because it's truth, but because you thought he loved you and he hurt you, now you're blind to the fact that Daddy DOES love you and WON'T hurt you. He tries his best. He's always checking up on you and asks how you've been,what's wrong, and why. He wants to udnerstand you so he can take care of you as best he can. You know how it feels to be alone like you were, and how unloved you were, and Daddy wants you to stay with him. He wants to be the one to tell you "I love you", he wants to be the one to hug you when you're scared to make up for all those years he wasn't there for you. He wants to be father figure in your life. Some people fall, and some people help them back up, for you, it's almost like you fell, banged you're head and is laying in an emotional coma on the ground. Daddy won't leave your side. He'll sit and sit and stroke your hand waiting for you to be okay.How ever long it takes. He loves as much as possible. You'll believe this with actions, and Daddy will look after you.