I don't know anymore. I thought... that we all wanted to do something in our life. Maybe Some kind of dream/s we seem to think about when we are young. And as we grow up we try to accomplish those dreams. I mean I know all I want is to make a difference. Something beatiful that means something to someone...anyone...just one person. But then you meet people who don't have any goals...and dreams...or they just don't care about themselves, there actions or there future. And it blows my mind away to realize how they think. Not to mention how can you respect anything when you can't even respect yourself?...when you can't even accept yourself? I hear people say this is the time to experience...Your whole life is an experience and just because I don't want to experience certain things doesn't mean i am missing out. If you can't believe in others believe in yourself. I think that has helped me a lot. When I get older I want to be able to look back at when i was young and not regret the things I did... just be proud of myself. So its hard for me to see what people do to themselves...even there reasons...its just sad and pathetic. I get sick of worrying and worrying about people that I can't help. They just ruin themselves slowly and No one can do anything at all. I guess when I was at Katies...I was talking with her mom and she made me feel a lot better by the things she said . I even read a paper on something to help me understand things better. Things are making sense to me now. All I know is I want to make something of my life and I'm happy I can say that.