I'm not suprised. In a way I don't know If I blame her. I just thought maybe for once things would be different. But I've sadly learned from the past. It never is. So I learned some things about myself. Do I ever really know what I want? Does anyone really know. As soon as we get it, we don't want it. When we don't get it, we want it more then ever. Some kind of craving. I thought I wanted him. I thought he wanted me. "I feel like you don't know what you want, and its hard for you not to let work ruin you." "Its the truth." But a few days ago... "what do you want out of this?" "I don't know. I'm not looking for the one like you are, I'm in it for everything." Why are you insulting my view on whatever "this" is, when in reality you openly admitted your scared to hurt me and you don't know what you want. Now I ask you. Why are you in this? because honestly my answer hasn't changed. ON another note. How can someone with such a beautiful mind have such an ugly soul? THen I think...maybe its the other way around.