I love him with everything that I am. He doesn't see it. I mean real love. Real love where hes in my dreams, my thoughts, my words. I couldn't sleep for months after we weren't getting along and he ignored me. Every kiss is as passionate as the first as if I could never feel again without it. He has the clearest perception on society. I literally couldn't breathe when he said there was nothing left. Hes the most beautiful, intelligent, intreguing, strong, ignorant, adamant person I know. Although he sees and never looks...he is flawed. I love all his flaws, I love all his perfections. usually when people get what they want...they no longer want it. When I got him..i wanted him...and I still do...I drifted to something different and at the moment made me happy...but in reality only one person can fill my emptiness entirely and that is him. NO one else. Everyone else only substitutes. He knows this...so I ask myself Can I let him go... because I have the sense to recognize that I cannot but I must for I can't go on any longer. What do you do when your not weak enough to commit sucide but your not strong enough to live?