Ok, so off to start another entry…. I know I didn’t ask too much of her, well maybe I did, I asked her to love me with all she had; to love me as much as I loved her. Maybe that is a little extreme but I feel it is what I need, a well balanced relationship. I know my love for Dawn will last for all my life, and I know I have what it takes to make it work with her. We broke up once before this, for about a month(I guess I should mention that). Any how, during that month apart, I didn’t see anyone, I didn’t kiss anyone, I didn’t date anyone, I was still completely attached to Dawn. I did talk to someone about possibly dating in the future but made it clear that it would be a ways off simply because I knew that if Dawn came back to me I would take her back in a heartbeat. Ok, so like I said, I was completely in love with Dawn and didn’t even try anything with anyone else. Well, within the first week, she started hanging out with a guy, they made out and dated for at least a week, maybe more. It just seems that it was a little too easy for her to get over losing me, you know? I guess I can’t really say anything, because in a previous relationship of mine, I did the same thing; it was the easiest way to get over the ending relationship, you know, jumping head long into something new and exciting. But, having had the experience, I knew it was wrong for her to do so, but knew that she had to do what she needed to do to get through it. I never brought that up, nor tried to make her feel guilty about it. I was upset, of course, she kissed someone else, the woman I loved had feelings for someone else, but I didn’t hold it against her, and it really didn’t cause me to lose trust for her either. I figure that when she isn’t with me, she is free to do what she pleases, but when she is with me, she will be mine. Besides, trust is all I have to go on, we are 300 miles apart for most of the year while she is back home working and I am in Dallas going to college. Let’s put in some more background information about myself. I have only really loved one other person, she too uses this diary service so I won’t mention her name, she knows who she is and that is good enough! Anyways, our relationship lasted 3 years minus the one month I ended it so as to “have fun my senior year of high school while she was in college 300 miles away”. Yeah, I know it was a pretty shitty reason to break up, but I really thought it was what I needed, but within a month I found I was wrong, and she was great enough to take me back…… That was my only other relationship that lasted more than 3 months, and the 3 month relationships, yeah I think there might have been 2… that is the extent of my dating history. So, what I am trying to say is that Dawn knows all this about me as well; I am very committed to my relationships. My only other relationship was 3 years long, I mean doesn’t that mean something? I never cheated on the one I loved, not for 3 years; not while she was in Dallas and I was so far away, never once did I cheat on her. She knows that, she trusted me, why can’t Dawn? Grrrrrr… I think this is getting toooo long, so more thoughts on another day, until then I will be loving Dawn and dreaming of her simply because I can’t make myself stop. Thanks for all the kind thoughts and great advice; just don’t know how hard it is going to be to follow it all. :) ~~Aaron