what's wrong with me? it seems that my life has stand still for the last few years. I've made no improvements in nothing. I've done worse in school, made few friends, done nothing with school activies, and well i have no success to speak of. Maybe I'm just lazy. i don't think so i think i don't have a active interest in life i used to hit myself. Then i started cutting myself. I have it all under control now. the scars are still there. i always thought maybe finding a boyfriend or someone to love like a good friend would slove my pain. it doesn't though. pain is always there. the more you try to escape it the more it will comes back. yeah i know people this last holiday wished they were with someone. but the fact is someone else won't make you happy. your happiness should not be allocated in one person. that one person will let you down because they are human.