Another soul crashing day at home. Yesterday was worse though. Yesterday was heart breaking. I lied to someone. I flat out told her something of myself that was not at all the truth. I felt bad about it. I lied to cover up my failure, to make my imagine look better, but if she finds out that I lied then I will have none of her respect. It's really so easy to lie. I swear people will believe anything. When I was little I told a kid that my mom wasn't my mom but my nanny. And I told someone else that my uncle had a seizure and that I had to go home. They believed that shit. Hell I think I would believe that shit. People automatically trust. Everyone I meet puts faith in me. The faith I won't hurt them, that I won't lie to them. It's so wrong to lie. I feel so bad, because really I haven't lied like that in so long. I would like to come clean of it. I want to be forgiven, but I don't want her to know I lied. I am so fucked up. It's almost like I committed murder. I betrayed that lady's trust.