uhhh im sick today :( ! no fun. and my grammy is in the hospital. she has a staff infection. the doctors said its treatable but can be fatal bc her body is to weak to fight it. they are doing everything they can to make it better. its a scary reality check. i love her so much and shes been my second mom. i know death is a natural thing and something i dont like to think about but that weve only been taught to hate it, i dont know, shes my world. shes always been there for me even when i couldnt always be there for her. i hate to think she has to spend alot of time alone there, bc my grandpa has to go home every now and then and get a couple hours of sleep before he goes back. she doesnt deserve to be alone. she looked so weak and could hardly breathe and stay awake. i tried to keep her from crying. i told jokes and held her hand when they drew blood to make her laugh and to keep my grandpas spirits up while all along the tears were fighting in my eyes. my eighteenth birthday is sunday. i owe those eighteen years to her. so this is in thought of her. i love her and all i can do now is let God take care of this. a bandaid is worthless.