Staring at the picture on my screen, I realized the girl I was staring at was me, and that I was beautiful, that I am beautiful. I'm so far from perfect, but I realized perfection is not beauty. perfection is just completetion. Just staring at the picture of me bewilders me. I don't know who took it, but it was candid. I'm standing there with my friend happy. And while I appeared to be happy, i'm pretty sure I went home and felt miserable. It just makes me wonder about what I'm doing with my life. It makes me wonder about how i'm really acting. I know i'm an asshole though. I'm a complete asshole. I got an apology, but for me It's not enough. It's never enough. I'm never happy with what I have. While things are good, I'm not happy with it, because I know I could have it so much better. I'm glad to say though, My self esteem problems are gone. I'm finally pretty happy with myself body wise. I just wish everyone could be happy how they are. and I wish people could see themselves as how everyone else sees them.