today i cleaned my room, got clean, played cards, layed in bed and watched movies and went shopping with my love. it was a wierd day, im still not really sure if i feel happy or sad or how i feel. my parents are leaving for a week so its gonna be wierd these next few days, my uncle is going to be sleeping at our house which is awkward. i really really need to lose weight. im getting so fat. i feel like im on a rollercoaster ride of highs and lows. im happy with my love, but then im sad and then i feel happy again and then im not sure how i feel. i wish things would just stand still for a little bit. im getting really emotional and its freaking me out. when i start crying i ask myself why im doing it and its like i dont know. my friends are good. tomorrow is mothers day and my mom will be home for an hour or two,..wierd. they better get me some cool stuff in new orleans! i really wish i could travel, my dream is to travel everywhere and just experience different cultures. things are allright with my love, a little rocky but still awesome. we have been going out for 7 1/2 months. i love him so much. well thats about it.