so im home alone bored. ive realized that things are changing and it really sucks. i hate changes. things and people seem alot more distant, and unreachable anymore. sometimes i wonder what things would be like if i still lived in santa barbara, or if i never met the love of my life. would things be the same as a few years ago? some changes are good, but i hate it when friendships change. no longer does it seem like im close to anyone nearly as i used to. i think everybody is just finding out who they are, i just wish we were doing it together. i notice my friends, and when i see them its more of a "wow i havent talked to you in so long,.." kinda thing rather than a replay of an inside joke. it makes me sad. i wish things were just as great as those 80's movies that portray highschool to be chaotic, unpredictable, and laid back. so much pressure these days, not enough time to have fun. kids just seem so lazy to do anything anymore. i hate how school is so segregated, and how little cliques only talk shit about other people. its so sad,what happened to the old days where life was based on peace, rock and roll, and having a good time? i wish i was alive to enjoy it. the things i hate most are people who dont appreciate how good they have things, hypocrites, and people who base things off of appearance, status, money, and shit like that. i really dont think those kind of people will get far in life, or be happy.