previously mentioned boy, with nice hair bears resemblence to boy previously interested in, way long ago.
boy previously interested in called.
its been years. why now?
our closest mutual friend has just been arrested for drugs that you started her on.
remember when you had a hair cut that made you look like one of the beatles, when we were both into each other, but never acted on it?
i should call you. i want to call you.
i really shouldnt call you.
so about that time i slept with your friend.
sorry. he was cute. i liked his hair.
i guess it shoulnt have been in your bed.
you were busy anyway.
shit.
the probelm is, i kind of liked you.
yay veggie on a meat based holiday.
im homeee
but really really sickly. i cant help make thanksgiving dinner for fear of infecting the masses. well like 5 people tops, but still, they wouldn't be happy with me.and yea. i can;t really breathe. what a nice break this is. but at least we;re going to merlins tonight. like four of our friends are performing. i seriously love drag queens. :) its going to be awesome to hang out with everyone again, its been wayyyy too long. looking forward to good times.let the grab ass begin.
i am sickly.
im dying.
not really
but its been a while since i;ve been afflicted
im not used to it as i used to be.
sigh.
anyone want to make me chicken noodle soup, minus the chicken?
its the new year,
18 in 5
i have such a feeling of dread for this year
horrid things
i don;t understand
i have so many wonderful plans for this year,
i hope i haven't worked for nothing.
sigh
of relief
to remind me to keep breathing.
i keep forgetting
have you ever gotten something that you wanted
sooooooo
bad, but you don;t have time to enjoy the win?
im screaming inside because i got it.
i smile when no ones looking, and sometimes they catch me
and ask me to explain,
but they don;t reslly get it.
im getting out
im living my dream
well not yet, and the anticipation is killing me
i win, i do
i will do so much
but i want to start now
i want a canvas as big as my room
so i can pour myself onto it
and when i finished
i'll cover it in a tarp and hide it away
sometimes somethings are so powerful they hurt
i want to make it hurt
and then store it away,
to look back on years from now
though the paint,
every stroke will be ingrainded in me,
always able to recall every detail in my mind
i don;t want to see it
its so much me, i can't have it near me
its in me.
i bleed paint, im shureof it
my tears are turpentine
how could they not be?
sigh
im just bursting at the seams
and i want to let it burst and color my world
but i dont; have the time
and no one wants to see such a painting
im sure it can kill
i like this song.. its a bit too me.
She no wait, but she know me
Intake purge, it's my disease
Hold me closer let me be
Hold me closer let me go away
Barely know you know my name
Trip the witch and ride the shame
Just because you're so cliched
It don't mean you won't get paid
as many know, rent came out today,
so of course i went to see it, how could i not?
apparently it was a resounding feeling as it was sold out.. but thank you fandango for reserving me tickets..
i thought it was well worth it. though i might have portrayed it differently, i know i would have, if i had produced it, but even though it was different, i liked it.
it was not true to the stage, but i didn;t expect it to be. underground classic turned mainstream.. im shure die hard rent: the musical fans were let down, but someone always percieves something different in media trasition. cough harry potter.
twenty five thousand
angel was the strongest charactor, though i wish 'contact' hadn't been cut. angels death on stage is much more intense than here, and i wanted her to go out extravagently, as everything about her was a cut above the rest.
oh and did mark and benny get together at the end? the cast all grab their significant others, and those two end up together... eh
maureen came off as an annoying drama kid who can;t sing, when in reality idina is amazing.. wicked anyone?
the church scene was maybe my favorite, but the nature of the scene lends itself to that anyway.. but it was nicely done, even though i started crying before that, it hit me.
those who have seen the stage performance either appreciatede this film more or hated it. i;m glad im not the latter of the two.. i would like to see it again, to catch the little things, yell the little lines that exploded in my mind.. we light candles.. :)
six hundred minutes.
rent tomorrow
im excited
no i just say that i guess
im interested in how
they will portray it,
but i think
the stage is better.
i have new interest also
tick tick boom
also written by jl
autobiography at that
so we'll look into it.
nothing could compare to
Feed - wonderful read
anyway...
i work all this week
i wanted to hand out dinners
with the salvation army
but i know it will exhaust me
to the point of no return
i don;t want to be sick
so tomorrow is:
work, rent, get ready for thanksgiving
thurday is:
work, eat, clean massive amounts of dishes, college essays
friday is: college essays, work
saturaday is:
last minute college stuff, mail it out, work.
sunday is:
work, try to find a new sweatshirt- i wore this one out.
what a nice thanksgiving vacation.
and they won;t even let me visit her in the hospital...
click the link
to edit your home
that won;t take you home
anymore than the empty bottle
full less than an hour ago could.
friends requesting a hello
and conscious effort from
the ones the treasure
they want to know they are loved
accepted, excepted from the rest
so much more that you leave
them a love note from a song
you never knew the tune to.
or maybe you're just
advertising your faec
so they buy into the product
that you;ve made yourself become.
i want to go home.
i want to get re-connected with my friends.
i want to be more than colorful html and a comment count.
i hate being fake.
How happy is the blameless Vestal's lot!
The world forgetting, by the world forgot.
Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind!
Each pray'r accepted, and each wish resign'd.