mmmm lifer... guh.. brenda's obessed with la will once again.. but they got into a fight last night and brenda was feeling shitty but she couldn;t be comforted today, b/c she had to go nuture daley... but i didn;t think daley had any problems today.. she's buddy buddy with reed again, paco still visits, she still hates me, nothing seems to be much more horriable than usual... actually it seemed like it should be a good day.. but it wasn;t.. i dunno why but that's how it goes i guess.. i think she thinks i fucked things up for her and reed.. i'm not completely shure on how i did that.. they weren't together at that point... i guess the lesson learned is a one night stand should stay that, and not become a two night stand or more? right? maybe... that's too bad cuz he got pierced some more too.... ATTN: any girls (please be hot) who wanna make a uhhhh video with me and brittnie and luke and kurt and maybe brittnies mom.. we making a porno film for coke.. i here were big in japan.... anyway.. back to reality... (i like naked people) .. i go to philly tomorrow.. with a cd player and a journal... i guess it's good im going even tho i hate all the people who are going with me.. well claire's going and she's all good but.... it's good to get away though i need that tooo... since i never got to go see my love in florida last month.. i should really call her again... we haven;t talked in forever... wonder if she's still bi... or if it's still cool to be bi... hell same thing.. im so cold.... im gonna ball you discreetly.. time to go draw in my sketch book now a supplement to my actuall journal...